not enough of a weirdo
i listened to an interview the other day with a photographer i absolutely love and she talked about allowing yourself to be the weirdo you are and not being afraid to show the mess and struggles you have. i totally got it, feel it and agree with showing the good, the bad and sometimes the ugly. but being a weirdo - it was like 'oh, well that's the clincher for me.'
i have always felt normal, boring, vanilla.
i always hear about everyone just wanting to be normal and how it is ok to be different and i was like, huh? i want to be different! at university i signed up for as many art classes as my communication degree allowed and in every class i was the 'normal' student. i never dyed my hair, never pierced weird places, and didn't smoke (anything) and i felt that my art lacked a certain depth.
apart from a few brief attempts at rebellion i still see myself as normal, plain. i know i am unique, but just kind of feel 'ordinary' unique.
so this makes me question - am i being a weirdo by feeling this way? or is this what everyone feels therefore reinforcing my feelings of being not enough of a weirdo?